My Life Plan.

Long time bloggers. I cannot believe how quickly time has past already since my last post. So much has happened and I am excited to blog about it. I have only just completed education and entered "University of Society"- i.e. the new adult world. This occurred to me that it may be time to write myself a life plan, to paint a picture of my new path.

Job by 22.

After facing many rejections, interviews, interview failure and re-trying, I found a job :) You have no idea how high I jumped when I received the phone call from the agency telling me that my holiday will soon be over because I was employed. It is THE most ideal job for me: standard 9-5 hours, no customer service involved (Which means I can just be myself and not pulling that fake smile on all the time), no competition towards targets- i.e. minimum office politics and no bitches...
But most importantly- The Career Pride. I am so grateful to be offered this job and I KNOW and appreciate how lucky I am..- I just love learning new things and enjoy the sense of pride once I have overcome a challenge and achieved good results.
This job has EVERYTHING that I ask for- I have always dreamt of becoming an office lady: Hair up, slipping into my black heels and walk in my black suit and white collar. My dream has come true! Here is a picture of me, smiling on my first day of work :)

And also some pictures of my work place and my decorated desk:

 

 

And so, my journey begins here.. Where do I want to be in ten years time?

Live out by 23.

I have always been living with my mom, with the only exception of my year abroad spent in Tokyo. But now I am ready to become independent from my parents. I am ready to take the turn to look after them.
For the past year I have had several arguments with my boyfriend regarding this topic. We've been together for almost 6 years now and the way that he appears to have no urge to move out with me really frustrated me. Until yesterday he said to me, "Why don't we just get a mortgage instead of renting since we can afford it?" It's exciting to think about, a new beginning, that belongs to us two.

I have so many ideas for the interior of my future house, do you? :)

Married by 25.

I am worried that once I move out I will never get a proposal, let alone a wedding. I am such a romantic- I have always believed that a woman's life is not completed without experiencing marriage and child birth. Like any other girl, I had fantasies. How I am going to be proposed to, and what my wedding will be like. I have even chosen a preferred design of my future wedding dress already, something elegant and classy, but not OTT.

First child by 28, second by 30.

I LOVE BABIES. And I am going to give my children the best. Hopefully I will have one boy and one girl. As the only child in the family, I know how lonely it feels and how easy it is to become anti-social when your the only one. So, first child by 28, and second by 30- small gap between me and my babies, easier to understand them.

 

I want to become a great parent.

 

I am welcoming my tomorrow with a smile everyday. I am so excited to find out what is going to happen next. Be loved, Be successful, Be blessed, Be ambitious.

 

The Voyage of Rachel Li, has begun.

The Journey to... Where??

The past 2 months had been a blast and now what is left is actually, back to stress, concerns and negativity. I just came back from a so-called graduation trip to my home town Hong Kong, Malaysia and Beijing (which I will write about later). There I met some great people, took some great photos, and tasted delicious food. 

A week after I return to London was another big day that I faced: The graduation ceremony, MY graduation ceremony. I received my results through the net and when I told my mom that I was awarded a First Honour, she burst into tears, telling me that her work has finally completed. Yes, it's time for me to repay.

Me and my parents. With dad's eyes closed! hehe.

Some of my beautiful friends whom I shared the 4 years with.

It was a nice day, although I was not impressed with the ceremony at all. All we did was line up to shake the hand of some woman's whom I have never met in my entire university life. We didn't even receive a fake scroll or anything. Nevertheless, it was a formal way to end the 20 years of my education lift. And there I am, packing my bags and continue with my dreams.


But what I wanted to blog about today, is my uncertainty. I am unsure of the path that I should take; unsure about my future. Let alone that I cant really see where my talent and ability lies. I often ask myself the question: "What have I got that is better than others? What do I have that makes companies want me?" And then, I could not answer the question which leaves me to great distress. Yes, I have the qualification. I can speak 4 and a half languages. SO? It does not mean anything anymore in the current world. Education does not matter. Skills does not matter. What matters is how you put your skills to use, your experience, and your achievements. And what do I have? Nothing. 


But apparently there is always hope. So let's see what the guy up there has got planned for me, if he really exists. 

The face of uncertainty, haha

Will you wish me luck?

Graduation Dinner

Exams are finally finished. Revision and busy torturing period is all over. From now on, (after my long ass holiday anyway) my life takes up a new path, full of uncertainty and excitement. Before all of this, I had a chance to party with my fellow course mates and best friends that I made during the 4 years of education. What's more was to be able to see the cute smiling faces of the world's best teachers that night. We were truly blessed to have them helping us through our degree. Without them, we wont be where we are now. I want to take this opportunity to thank everybody who has been beside me, enjoying the fun and also the hardships of learning the Japanese language, including the holy placement exam during the second year.

It was a fun night where most people dressed up, and so of course you see a different me too :) What do you think of the "trying to be elegant" me? hehe.

The Night. The Fun.

All the teachers from the Japanese department were present and I saw lots and lots of smiley faces. The girls were beautiful and the boys were smartly dressed.
Enjoy the pictures!

 

The BEST teachers on the entire planet

Lecturing me how to use the shutter on my camera LOL

My best beautiful friend :)

Train buddy!

And the night ended with lots of laughter and fun. Farewell my school buddies :) I wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do in the future. Hope to see you all in the graduation ceremony!

With Love, MUJI

Busy Busy!

Muji is so busy!!
Life hasn't been very exicitng lately...
Exams exams exams only.

So nothing but a photo. 

P.S. TODAY IS A BLOODY GOOD DAY BECAUSE MUJI HAS FINALLY PASSED HER DRIVING TEST!!! 

I am going on three holidays after exam. Lots of exciting stories then!
Ciao~

Change.

Would you dare to show yourself 5 years ago? haha. 
I don't know why I am doing this.It might be social suicide.I randomly found some old photos and came across this. I have more horrifying pictures of myself but I didnt want to go too far.
But I would like tostep away from my past- the UGLY past. I dont want to scare all of you away I guess, haha.

Appearance

This is a photo of me and my mother on my 16th Birthday...2005.
I had practically no self confidence and it stayed that way for more than 2 years and at some point in 2006, I tried to commit suicide. Failed of course, I was too whimpy to actually cut my wrist.
But looking back, I think I understand why I wanted to kill myself. I had no idea about words like "make-up", "fashion" or trends. I did not know how to dress, how to style my hair, or how to present myself, nor did I have the money to. Worst of all, my English was so poor I couldnt communicate properly. My friends at that time all seemed to look decent, with the wealth to buy products to dress themselves up. When I was around them, I tend to always be playing the "support actress" role. They would be the ones getting the attention, whilst I stand aside.

This is me now. 22 years of age, 2011.

I guess I'd like people to not recognise the "old" me...My confidence level remains low. I don't love myself. In fact, those who know me knows just how much I hate my body, and...probably  everything else. But at least I look like human now, compared to 5 years ago.

The Change.

I don't think it is my looks that changed the most. It is my heart, and my way of thinking. Maybe it's because I learnt how competitive this world is. Maybe its because as you grow, you come to realise that the world is nothing but fake-ness, judgement and appearance. They say, "Don't judge the book by its cover." Shut up mate. Everybody is doing it. As I grew, I learnt more about how to decorate yourself, learning how important packaging is in this world. I learnt how fragile a relationship can be, not just love, but also friends and family. To survive in this society. Nobody cares about your inner-self, how you present yourself means everything....Nobody likes to hear the truth, they like to hear what they want. It's up to you to decide whether you want to remain innocent and wait for that one true person to appear, or get on with your life accepting these cruel facts.
I am finally grown enough to realise this truth. Sometimes I wish I didnt realise all of this and I could remain naive, but looking from a positive aspect, I am trying to persuade myself that I will see excitement in life as well as the bad.

 

This little girl, was me.

She is gone, and will stay as a memory.

Rachel Li, it's about time that you get out of your naive big head and experience the evil.

The beginning of my adventure

I have open another blog because the previous one had quite a lot of restrictions as to changes that I could make to it. In this blog, I want to put down in words all the previous places that I have travelled to, all the new and beautiful things that I have discovered in the past and my feelings towards the culture and the countries that I have been to: and share with all my friends. Five years ago I pledged to myself that I travel at least once a year, no matter how busy I am. Being in the final year of my education life, I want to take this year to its most advantage to enjoy myself, before I take another new step, a new beginning in my life....